Happy Thursday and New Year’s Eve! Here in blog land, I'm making Thursdays for…"Thinking Out Loud”. What’s in it for me? A brain dump. What’s in it for you? Total randomness! Enjoy!
Who’s got plans for ringing in 2016 tonight? None for me, I’m just hoping I don’t fall asleep on the couch at 10 and wake up at 12:15… which may or may not have happened on a few occasions in the past. ;) I’m not a huge fan of resolutions, but there are definitely some [work, fitness, blog, life] things I want to see happen in 2016… 2015 was a year of learning. A year of trying, struggling, failing, achieving, and continuing on regardless of what life was throwing at me. I am most definitely not at my destination, but I am definitely on the journey. I have this urge to reset…to find newness…clean and purge and minimize my life. Thinking truthfully and deeply about who I am, what I want from life, and gently taking the steps to get myself there. Like everyone, I’ve been very much an example of having a goal casually slip away after only a few weeks. I want to ensure that if I make a goal, I feel it in my deepest core, all the way down to my toes. I really just want to keep the ball rolling by pushing myself to step out of my comfort zone and improve a little bit each day, whether that be through my running, blogging, traveling, photography, friendships, networking, social media-ing, etc.
I seem to have forgotten to post lately. Well, no. It’s just been one of those weeks.. err... months where I needed some time and space away from the computer and social media. We all need that sometimes. I love blogging & I love running, I do, I really really do. But life is hectic right now. I'll be back soon.
Welcome to my random Thursday Thoughts!
You know why I love to blog?
Because It's like a journal, and I like to throw things out there not knowing who will see it.
Guys, I really wish I was more fancy! I wish I was more A LOT of things, but fancy is up there.
I find myself wondering lately, what do people think of me really? I feel like being good at Instagram/Blogging is a skill and it’s a skill that I am lacking. I just want to make sure that who I am really shows through. I really wish I could meet you all in person! I am often sarcastic, but I am also honest. Sometimes I like to take running seriously and sometimes I take it lightly. I want to inspire, but I want to feel like I can be honest when I struggle.
I’m just a mom who really really really likes to run. If you’re cool with that, then let’s keep at it.
Dream Big. Work Hard.
People often ask me why I run. Most of these people do not run themselves. They want to know why I get up at the crack of dawn to run before I start my day at work or with my family. They wonder why I would ever want to run another marathon, or any race for that matter. I think they think I’m half crazy (and I may very well be!).
I know why I started running - I had compleatly lost myself dealing with the death of my then husband and I found running during that dark time of my life.
But why do I still run? I’ve been thinking a lot lately about why I run.
I enjoy it 98% of the time. I like how it makes me feel and I like that it allows me to eat chocolate or drink beer every now and then without gaining a ton of weight. I like that it challenges me, in every aspect. That’s not really why though. I mean... It isn’t something that feels good 100% of the time, in fact, sometimes it makes me hobble around the house like an old lady. It even makes me miserable at times. I feel like I’m a better person when I’m consistently running though. I feel like I’m better equipped to handle all of the crazy and wonderful things that life throws my way.
My life from sun-up to sun-down is full of distractions- my son needs help tying (or untying) shoes, or a science project, responsibilities in my roll at work, church, meals, laundry, this new blogging/social media project of mine, parent/teacher conferences, emails, carpools, practices, rehearsals, the list goes on and doesn’t end. And this isn’t the case just for mothers, but for everyone- work responsibilities, family, all of it. Life.is.hectic.
Luckily, before sun-up or late in the evening, I have a time all my own. In the dark, in the quiet, just me. I sweat, my endorphins flow, I’m breathing fresh air deep into my lungs. It’s the best. If I had the ability to give this gift to every person out there, I would!
There’s just something about running that works for me and I don’t know how else to explain it. I want people to understand why I spend so much time and energy pounding the pavement by myself. Is it selfish? Maybe, but maybe not. Maybe it’s more selfish if I don’t do it, because then I don’t have the energy to run around with my son, sanity to sing a song 10 times in a row with him or the patience to deal with friendships.especially since I haven’t been running much during this recovery. It’s not something that I ever thought I’d miss, but I DO, oh I do! I’ve been struggling lately to actually get out the door to log the miles though. I’m tired, it’s cold, the house is a mess, my son wants my attention… all excuses. None of which are good reasons. This whole not running lately thing has left me thinking about why I’ve been bailing lately and why I started running to begin with. Which led me back to the question... Why do I run? I've been down in such a slump with my injury lately that I NEEDED this reminder tonight, I needed to remember why I do this and what it is about running that I love. Don't ever outrun your joy of running...remember that!