Somewhere I got this wild idea in my head (truly, it was wild for me) to do my first triathlon. This may sound like no big deal to some people, but it turns out, I’m not a swimmer. Not as in “I don’t like to swim” but as in “I really don’t know how to swim”. I can get in the water and get from point A to point B, but I certainly don’t do it correctly and I usually have my face out of the water. Because putting my face in the water and suddenly forgetting how to breath is the perfect storm for a panic attack. I can’t explain why exactly, I just don’t like having my face in the water.
Soooo...... How do you go from non-swimmer to a triathlete?
Much like everything else- It’s a journey.
It’s a journey that I’ve played with the idea of taking on since last fall.
I tried learning to swim last fall. And by swimming, I mean floundering, panicking, getting frustrated and giving up for months until I worked up my courage to get back in the pool.
That day came today.
In pretty much every other area in my life I found success fairly easily. I flew through nursing school with flying colors, built a successful career, I'd like to think my marriage was successful, I raised a fantastic child, I figured out how to run a marathon, I learned to semi-master the road bike.
But the water... that damn water... I just couldn’t wrap my hands around the power it held over me. There were ups, downs, some tears, some fears and very little support. I'm hoping I can push past my fear of water this time around and find myself a victory of not being afraid of the water.
When is the last time that you have tried something new? No really… when?
We are creatures of habit, which means we tend to do the same thing. Again. And again. Doing something new is unfamiliar, which can be scarier than knowing that you will fail at doing something you regularly do. I can do this. I can get over my fear.
I might just have my eye on a race later this fall, I might just sign up before I know how to fully swim, but honestly that is pretty typical Mandie behavior. I told a few people I knew and I thought, "Oh crap. Now I have to learn to swim!!!”. But I didn’t quite go public with the specifics of the race just yet. I suppose this is me sorta going public, but I'm not ready to divulge the when & where just yet. And so, my journey really begins. I'm ready to put myself in a pool a few days a week. Keep your fingers crossed for me!
Do things that scare you.
Dream Big. Work Hard.