Week 11-12(?) of training… the week I lost ALL of my confidence. I’ve had a pretty great training cycle the last 8 or so weeks- give or take a handful of bad runs, up until this week when my runs were just plain bad or non-existent. I no longer feel like I am capable of hitting my goals. Someone tell me this thought process is normal and I’m not totally crazy?! I’m just getting in my head again, right?
This week was a little bit of a cut-back week for me, due to A: being super tired and giving my body ample time to rest and B: being super busy with being on the staff for the Chicago Triathlon this weekend. I’ve run a total of 5miles since Saturday. This is so not like me. My heart wants it, but my body seems resistant. Is it just me or does lower mileage weeks sound great but then make you crazy instead? Should I run? Should I rest? Just stop thinking Mandie!!
Things have felt off from my last long run on Saturday, it was hard and remember when I mentioned that it’s taking longer to recover, yeah- sigh. Saturday was my first 18 miler. The first 8 miles were as easy and enjoyable; I was riding the adrenaline high and just coasting along. Then boom, about 12 miles into the run I wanted to curl up and cry. My legs felt heavy, my breathing felt forced. Something has just been off. It's probably in my head. Whatever the reason, mentally, I don't feel like I'm in a good place for running long distance right now. I desperately NEED to get my mind back in the game. I’m learning that mental training is just as (if not MORE) important than physical training. Your legs will always take you as far as you need to go, it’s your mind that will quit first and tell you that you can’t go on.
I just wanted to share this with you because I know that training is not always unicorns and rainbows (for any of us). We all experience highs and lows but luckily the lows don’t last forever. I know things won’t be flawless but I know what I need to do in order to make things better. Hoping for a better training week next week.
Dream Big. Work Hard. :)
Tell me, how do you deal with the ugly side of running? How do you stay positive and motivated?