Is this thing on?
So, the NYC half-marathon is 4 days away and guess what? I’m under trained and nervous. Life happened and things aren’t really working out the way I had planned. But, that doesn’t mean my spring race season is going to be a wash. It's always tough to mentally focus after not performing as well as I would've liked to, but I'm working on putting more trust in my training and accepting that not every race will be great. Learn from it.
So, let’s get real, running isn’t always easy. There are definitely runs where my legs feel like jello or days I just don’t want to get out there and put in the work. There are times where I question why I’m putting so much time and effort into this whole running thing when no one is forcing me to do this. And clearly, there have been, and will continue to be, races that I train for that just don’t turn out how I would like them to. My goals are important to me, and I’ve come a long way over the past two years, and I’m not ready to throw in the towel just yet.
I hit a setback in my training a few weeks ago when that tendon in my ankle/foot started acting up again. Though not necessarily easy, and maybe a little slower than I would have liked, my training was at least taking place and I was feeling good about where I was headed. I’m not 100% certain, but I think I’ve narrowed down the cause of my sudden flare up to my a new brand/type of running shoe. A nagging pain in my ankle and down into my foot. I’ve been having trouble running, and even walking without pain. It’s not a good feeling. I might have brushed it off for a week or two before admitting defeat and going back to my physical therapist. Ultimately, my training suffered from not being able to run as many miles as I normally would due to pain and just trying to rest and heal my foot/ankle. The good news is, my PT seems to be sure I didn’t re-tear anything and it’s just inflammation and swelling around the site of my injury and some weakness in my tibialis anterior muscle. He has given me the ok to still run NYC, if I so desire, as long as I’m not in any sort of real pain.
The tough moments where we have to pick ourselves up, dust off our ego and get back to training even harder and smarter are where we gain our strength. The struggles that we have and the races that don’t go as planned just make the victorious ones even sweeter. I don’t get paid to do this. It’s not my full time job. I run because I love it. Yes, I have goals that will take a lot of hard work to accomplish but none of them mean a damn thing if I’m miserable the whole time. Remember that whole ‘never out run your joy of running’ thing? Through I am slightly upset that I wont be "racing" NYC, I will enjoy every single mile of that run, that's for sure. And when I get back, I know I have some serious work to do. for now, I'm putting a book-mark in this chapter as a lesson learned.
So, trust the training process. Sometimes we don’t perform as we would like and sometimes we question if we’re putting in the right amount of work to reach the goals we have set out in front of us. There is a method to the madness of training and if I just decide to go all in without questioning it, I’ll eventually reap all of the rewards.
Now, it’s time to pack! See you soon NYC!
Dream Big. Work Hard. :)